My First Smut

My First Smut: Fifty Shades of Disappointment

My First Smut is a recurring feature where we talk about our formative smut experiences. These short confessionals may include such details as: What book did you read? How old were you? Were there other people involved? What made the experience special? What role does smut play in your life?

This week, author Jessica Kay talks the thrills and disappointment of Fifty Shades of Grey.

My first foray into smut was 50 Shades of Grey. I read it in my late 20s, and I was excited to see what all of the hype was about. I kept reading, and waiting, and turning the pages hoping the smutty scenes would grow in their fervor, but the smut never impressed me. I have read way more depraved (in a good way) books since then which really fueled my fire. Smut has been a huge part of my life. I’ve always had this sexual part of me that seemed a little bit wrong or too much might be the better way to describe it. I have explored it in many different ways and have recently funneled that passion into my romance novels. Now I get to think about, write, and read smut all of the time. It’s a dream come true!

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Thanks Jessica! We look forward to checking out Jessica’s Lone Mountain Ranch romance series, featuring cowboys, love triangles, and threesomes. Watch this space for a review coming soon!

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